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I Can't Help But Change

by Dystonia

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1.
Ocean Blue 05:36
I'm unprepared But I'm finished Declaration of my free will and independence Never to be held down again Only holding it down Keeping it real, real realistic Focused on self improvement rather than self reflection And every day I tell myself I could be a better person But why am I not? Fighting the urge to see this place again I knew we were never friends I know all good things must come to their end And I'm an airplane Flying in a jet stream Leaving you in a wind of cold coffee Reminding me Of what it means to be happy But am I happy? The leaves fall down It's fall now Autumn turns brown with decay But I'm feeling rebirth I'm feeling spring in summer All the seasons blending into each other to form another year And we say without fear That we embrace change I can't embrace change wholeheartedly Only once and once my friend I told myself I would never be held down again But it feels better to be held down by you Ocean blue I adore you With more depth, more than I can afford for you It's a precious light And nightlife and lifetimes Protect its strife I'm unprepared But I'm not finished With you just yet I'm unprepared And I'm not finished With you just yet...
2.
Takin' its toll, it's gettin' old; I feel the same way, the same days. Takin' its toll its gettin' old, feelin' the same way, the same days. Sleep may be for the weak, but I'm getting weaker and weaker without sleep--wasted energy; I can't be everything. I can't be everything. Why can't I sleep? Why can't I just sleep? Why can't I sleep? Takin' its toll, it's gettin' old, feelin' the same way, the same days.
3.
Velvet 03:30
Can't be lookin' at that smile Sends a shiver down through me Her head hits my heart, but lands like her smooth skin lays in sun soaked days She's green and keen All I need is apathy but still her image captures me She's green and keen My body is in atrophy, but still her lungs entrap me Play with my bones Man she's on the run Closer to home Damage is done Play with my bones Close enough to hold She was velvet I felt it Can't be looking at that smile I'm a stranger, don't wanna be She's lovely Her words wield a warmth For a failed and fatal fate She's green and keen All I need is apathy but still her image captures me She's green and keen My body is in atrophy, but still her lungs entrap me Play with my bones Man she's on the run Closer to home Damage is done Play with my bones Close enough to hold She was velvet I felt it It's the silence that wears you away It's the silence that wears you away Always lonely in this day and age Always lonely in this day and age KEEP THAT SILENCE AWAY KEEP THAT SILENCE AWAY She was velvet I felt it.
4.
Luck 04:25
How can we keep up something we didn't want to happen? Fight between our cheeks Kiss as we leave You're so gorgeous Still stuck in unemployment Maybe it was bad luck Maybe it was all bad luck Maybe it was our faults Or maybe the timing was off Distance breaches Different seasons Contraventions Leaving the peak where it ends Maybe it was bad luck Maybe it was all bad luck Maybe it was our faults Or maybe the timing was off I guess it was dumb luck To screw things up I guess it was my fault Oh, the timing was off
5.
Stretch a couple of years to know your name My darling, my friend turned lover Our unknown fates They can't teach patience in a classroom But I can learn in a chair Looking off at you across a room Made of formulation and thin air My love December makes things distant It's good we aren't so far apart It's a good thing you stole my heart Patience now Mind in ground Patience ago Oh, I love you so Now my toes are barely wet Watch the ocean swell and spread I'll love you like tomorrow Hold on to all your sorrows And drown it in hopes you will find the ocean's depths instead
6.
Dissonance 04:44
Back when we couldn't see Outside our windows Was it really love? Back when we couldn't hit All of the right notes Was it just discord Or was it something more? I was just guessing It'd never work out Bound for something else I was regressing Fell into bad health Bound for something else I shouldn't be thinking this Pondering the distance I shouldn't be messing with this We become dissonance I never knew your words Would hold meaning True to this day I never knew my words Would keep healing Learning from mistakes I shouldn't be thinking this Pondering the distance I shouldn't be messing with this We become dissonance
7.
Mindspace 04:36
Keep you To see your Mindspace Ours for the hour Criticizing strategy Yours for the taking Taking me I can't believe It could come this easy Ours for the hour Taking me out Need you To give your Mindspace Less in to lessons Breathing out ability You are not for waking But it's waking me I can't believe it would be this easy Less in to lessons Waking me up Reach you To take your Breach you To gain your But now I keep your Mindspace
8.
Study Music 02:47
Leggo my Eggo.
9.
We could talk all our problems off We could talk our problems over Making December turn colder Tasteful breaths in a lack of communication Silences in back seats The soundtrack of leaving Tasteful breaths in a pursuit of some progress Impurities can't push me The waiting is the healing You were all I saw Midnight and on We could talk all our problems off We could our problems over Making December turn colder Tasteful breaths in a lack of communication Backtracking in front seats The soundtrack of leaving Feeling void of thinking Thinking void of feeling Whatever it is It's all in your head You were all I saw Midnight and on We were all we knew Midnight and on
10.
How must it feel to be separate from first loves? How must it feel to deny the existence of past lifes? How must it feel to be struck down by arrows? How must it feel to be wrong when it's all right? And I keep banking on the time Where we're all wrong But it's all right Oh, my love I wanna see you tonight How must it feel to be distant from first touch? How must it feel to deny the existence of one life? How must it feel to be stuck down in the burrows? How must it feel to be wrong when it's all right? Oh, my love I wanna see you tonight
11.
Oh, it's the end of the night So goodbye, until next time But how could I say goodbye? To those street lights To those tree tops To those night skies How could I say goodbye? Oh, I couldn't now So I'll say... Goodnight.

about

This record is the summation of six years of writing together--writing about the relationships, the schoolwork, and the finality of our time together.

This is our second and final LP.

This is our heart and our soul.

This is why we make music.

Thank you for listening.

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released May 1, 2016

Credits:
Written and arranged by Kevin Andrews and Dylan Hilliker
Recorded by Kevin Andrews, Dylan Hilliker, and Mitchell Nelson
Mixed and mastered by Kevin Andrews
Album art by Alyssa DeGrand and Sarah Hutchison

Musicians:
Kevin Andrews - piano, vocals, keys, trumpet
Dylan Hilliker - drums, guitar, vocals
Jonathan Muroya - bass
Drew Medin - lead guitar
Kris Tremain - cello, synth
Marius Touissaint - saxophone
Charlie Thom - trombone

Group Vocalists - Grace Dokken, Hayley Koop, Andi Stensland, Daniel Hilliker, Jack Hilliker, Sly Zipse

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Dystonia Rochester, Minnesota

Dystonia plays a version of alternative/indie that is somewhere between Two Door Cinema Club, and Kings of Leon; comprised of Kevin Andrews (left, 18) and Dylan Hilliker (right, 17), the duo strives to not only create compelling music, but also contribute to growing the music scene in their community. ... more

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